the obsolete

Regrets never grow old i allways said
but time weakens the memory
replacements gets replaced by future
by stronger bonds, new goals, new dreams
So maby what my mother used to sing
about water under the bridge, wasnt as preaching as it used to sound
maby time eventually ereases everything from a human mind
I allways thought that only the blood coagulating would end the spiral

But in that case,if the human mind acctually devors itself
then does the soulsearching, the gnosis even matter?
Can really a certain knowledge and understanding follow us to the end
if the rest is so easily forgotten?
and how does our soul even know what to repress and what to retain?

When we are trapped in such a shallow wessel
is the mind and soul really able to comprehend what is valuable?

Isnt it only the knowledge and the ability that is in us from birth
that can acctually stay with us after the end of human time?

This seems more realistic to me.
And maby that also comes from the things i see in people
The drained consciousness of almost everyone around me
I dont just mean the averege thoughtless man
But even searchers, intelligent and understanding people
that at first glance seem to be more then empty
almost allways in a penetraiting light reveals a true empty content

sometimes i wish i had a mentor to discuss with
a person with a understanding above mine and a soul that contains something.
maby then this guttertalk would end.

its late, im tired.